Sunday, February 24, 2008

The Choice

I just finished the book "The Choice" by one of my favorite authors, Nicholas Sparks. It as amazing!!! Many of you have heard of the movies The Notebook and Message in a Bottle. Yep, those are his. He just wraps me in and I get so emotional in his books.
I don't want to give the book away but it left Kasey and I (yes.. he loves his books too) with a heavey heart and a great discussion. If you had to chose to keep your own hope alive for the one you love, or respect there wishes.....which would you chose? I want to say that I woudl respect their( Kasey's) wishes.. but as I sit and think about the choice Travis had to make in the book and I think I would make the exact same choice as he did. The hardest part is that you don't kow how it will turn out and you really have to rely on your FAITH!
I know that I found the love of my life... my soul mate and that the hardest thing that could ever happen is having to let him go. My heart goes out to all the people put in this situation... and I know some personaly, and my just aches!
So love with all your heart today... don't take tomorrow for granted- you just don't know what the future holds!So go read the book and ask yourself what you would do.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Family Nights

american idol

Okay.. so one of our family's favorite shows is back. American Idol is a favorite in the household. The kids love picking there favorites adn even beg us to call in at the end of the show. I must say that I enjoy the motivation it gives the kids to get everything done and to be on there bet behavior. We are starting to notice a trend in who like what and they tend to keep with a certin " style" . It will be interesting to see how this season pans out. We have our favorites in the boys.. now it is time for the girls. We even make charts so we can keep track of who we like and if we are guessing right on who will stay and who will go home. I truly savor these moments that Kasey and I can sit and have a fun evening with the kids watching a fun show week after week and munchin on some popcorn. the kids aren't always going to want to "bond" with us.. but we are going to stretch it out as long as we can.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Must Have Dance Moves

I laugh every time I watch this. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Thanks for sharing Kymberly!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

My loves......

So in the spirit of Valentine's Day I thought I would say something about all my special Valentines. I love love love my family. We have so much fun and truly love one another. We can be loud and crazy.... but I couldn't imagine my days any other way! I have a husband who is truly my Best Friend! He helps me with my crafts and does everything to help my "vision" come alive. I am so lucky. I have a 10 year old who has such a good heart. A 7 year old who is such a girl and loves doing all of my stuff with me. I have a 5 1/2 year old ... who is just a ball of energy and a 5 year old who always wants to be with his mom! And this doesn't even come close to telling you about each one. SO this week I want to honor them individualy! I can't get over how blessed I am to have my family. I can learn from them daily and just can't get enough.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Somewhere out there......

Somewhere out there is Kaydon's Sperm Donor! I have so many mixed feeling about this man who abandoned his son. I wish that I could find him. Let him know that all I want from him at this point is to sign the papers so I can move on. I hate wondering if he will somehow try to "jump in" and try to be #1 Dad just because biologically he is the father. Try to get him for summers or anything. He will always be Kaydon's biological father .... there is no changing that. And i am not going to hide that from Kaydon. If Kaydon wants a relationship with him...... I can understand. But Kaydon also knows who Daddy is . It takes so much to earn that title and Kasey has!!! Kaydon has no clue who Alex is...and vice versa. He owes me so much money that I don't see how he can better his life and become a better man as long as he is "hiding" out in the world. I want him to be a better man for Kaydon. Even is they never really know eachother. I want the comfort that kasey and I have Kaydon. That he is legally ours... like we are raising him. He is the only Father Kaydon knows ... and he is a great one. He treats him just like he was his own. I am so greatful that Kaydon has a Father like Kasey to teach him how to be a good man, father, husband and son. He has such a great example! I think that if Alex signed the papers.... he could move on as well. The guilt of not paying child support and the stress that he can never catch up would go away. He could see that Kaydon has a great home and family and he may then actually have the oppertunity to be blessed by knowing this little boy. I pray nightly for this. Not so we can get rid of him... but so that I know , God forbid anything happened to me, Kaydon would stay with the only Father he knows.... where he feels secure and with his Daddy and brothers and sister. He would still be home! it has almost been a year scence we have heard anything from him. At this point, I don't know if we ever will.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

My little Pirate

So it seems like yesterday that Kaydon was born. I can't believe that he is already 5! I am so amazed by him every day! He has such an imagination and a gentle spirit. He plays dress up every day and still has imaginary friends ( yes .. not just one but the whole Little Einstein gang) He plans on being a childrens book writer when he grows up and still plans on marring his Mom.
It is hard for me to fathem that is biological father just walked away and washed his hands of him. I regret DAILY that I gave Kaydon his last name and am saving pennies so that I can afford to get it changed to mine. Why should Kaydon have to learn, and live with, a name from a man who is not even around to be Dad? Kaydon has no idea who he is, why would he! When he is old enough he will know who is S.D. (sperm donor) is, but I have no doubt that he will always feel that Kasey is his DAD! He has earned it... he is there for him morning and night with a love that is as strong as he has for his biological kids. Kaydon is a lucky lucky boy!